I am doing this on my phone, so I will have to make corrections once I get back on the conputer . . .
Ism just feeling kinda low . . . i really need to get a grip. There is soooo much more I should be and sooo much more I should be doing. i just want to make my little corner of the world a little better. But i have no idea what to do, and i have no energy or strength to do it. I know Ive done some good things in my life, but I'm just so overwhelmed by the crap and chaos I cause.
i do know why I am on the earth, though. It is to bring David into this world. the scary thing is, I dont know how to handle his issues. I'm just not prepared to deal with the diagnosis - so much so that =Sm refusing to find out for sure what the diagnosis is. How stupid and selfish can I be??!! What a shitty mother I am. My awesome son deserves so much more than I can give him. I'm just lost . . .
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